just me n myself..

Aku da tk mampu lg..dr sehari ke sehari aku rasa sgt tertekan..hdp aku sgt membosankan..dh xmeriah mcm dlu..hdp aku cume rmh n dewan kuliah.aku xde life cm org lain.aku mmg jarang keluar..tp skrg aku mmg da xde ht nk keluar..pg kuliah pn terpaksa sbb aku ade tangungjwb ats bnda lain..

Kawan2..semua ade hdp msg2..biase la..yg ade repeat paper,kne gandakn usaha.yg xde syukur la..dgn tugas yg melambak.dgn hdp yg upside down aku rase aku makin sunyi n sepi n aku rasa lonely..IWAN? dia bz..cm biasa.hdp dia skrg kuliah,rmh sewa,hal rmh sewa.assmnt last sekali aku..call kejap letak..call kejap letak..kdg2 aku call berpuluh kali xjwb..hp ade 2 tp ssh nk jwb..sudahnye aku buat hal aku je..aku hdp dlm dunia yg aku bina.dunia yg xmelukakn hati aku..dunia yg aku reka semcm bilik kebal utk mengembirakn aku..

Semua org nk tgk aku happy.nk tgk aku senyum..pada dieorg bile aku senyum aku gelak means im in good shape..but no one ever know that deep down inside me im so sad..i just lost HER..mybe she not treat me so well but not matter good or bad she still mymum..n it i cant forget her..she always in me..i felt like i lost sumthing priceless in me..like i lost mypride.. there is impossibble for me tu cure so fast..its hurt me.so deep inside..it would took long time to be like normal..

Myrelationship gone worst bcoz im bored with his lifestyle..i bored with promises after promises his made..i bored with is anger..i bored with his time management..he cant focus on more than 1 thing.he just not committed.its happened so many times..n i tired of listening he promises.. promise that he want to change,he will change.he need time..but what i get?i got nothing..at the end there will be a fight n i will cry..n he will be so angry n lost his mind..im so tired of those things..i dont want to listen to any crap anymore..i bored with crying,bagging..i bored with those silly fighting.i bored with his anger..unmatured..ego..

So now..i decide to give up..i just go with the flow..i just do what i need to do..just follow what i decide on me..im so tired to think... i dont want to think anymore..let them decide what the best for them..n let me be me..im just tired..i need a rest..stop thinking about others..i just want to focus in mylife..

FRIEND COMES N GOES..HUSBAND COMES N GOES..LOVE COMES N GOES..

AT THE END THERES ONLY GONNA BE ME..EVEV FAMILY COMES N GOES..

NOTHING REMAIN FOREVER..NOTHING...

IT JUST GONNA BE ME MYSELF N I..

JUST ME..

ALONE...